everything you bless is not what i'd planned

All my restless heart could do is cry
I stepped on out into the night
The tides turned again and nothing felt right
I searched for truth I sought your light
and all my restless heart could do is cry

Chorus:
Everything I held is out of my hands
Everything you bless is not what I’d planned
Not what I’d seen, not what I’d dreamed

My hearts hope will rise and fall with the wind
A gentle breeze will blow me over again
I’m walking unstable

And all the things I held
Were dragging my heart so far down
And the things I’d dreamed were nothing, Nothing as they’d seemed
And then I question you
And doubt you as the God I know
But all over again, you saved me from myself

i heard this song on the radio as i drove home tonite, and not only did i like the sound of the song, the lyrics hit me like a 2x4 upside the head. the song is "out of my hands" by the turning, on the album "learning to lose". i immediately came home and bought the song on itunes... while i accepted a subbing job for cox tomorrow. back into a world i was so, so, SO glad to leave. so yet again, everything You bless is not what i'd planned...