i trust in You

Hillsong "Healer":
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands


i awoke with this song in my head this morning. i learned it 2 weeks ago, i think, when we were praying over my friend who is seriously sick. it has different meaning for me, and i'm thankful for it (and itunes).

psalm 103:1-5
bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me,
bless His holy name!
bless the Lord, O my soul,
and forget not all His benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity,
who heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit,
who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
who satisfies you with good
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

God has been SO good to me! i have had the opportunity the past few days to tell of His goodness, to think back upon the past 2 months that i've been here, as well as the past 7 years (my most significant growth in Christ in my life).

my life here is more than i could have asked for. i enjoy it immensely and am learning things i had never considered.

yet i long for more. my desires are selfish, like i am somehow entitled to more. instead of being thankful for the incredible abundance, i am constantly wrestling with what i don't have right now. i don't want to be fighting this battle, but like my roommate said last nite, if i don't struggle with it - keep laying it down (and then pick it up again) - it will only become a huge monster that overtakes my life. it already overtakes more of my thoughts and energy than i can really admit, and i'm so ashamed.

so for now, i say that Jesus, i trust in You. You are more than enough for me, You're all i need. i will bless You, i will not forget Your benefits: Your salvation, Your forgiveness, Your healing, Your redemption, Your steadfast love and mercy, Your goodness to me in every way conceivable, even in what i think i lack.

i trust in You.